30 HOURS !!!!

I had never sleep for 30 hours

means a day & 6 hours

feel crazy

yesterday was watching a drama

"Rosy Business"

nice

just cant stop after watching it

until 4pm only I felt tired

& I think I will sleep until the next day

but

unfortunately

when 8pm

someone

went to my room

switch on my light

&

start searching for something

don't worry

not thief

is my small brother

searching for his toy

Finally

I was awake

then take my dinner

copy my notes

sign in MSN

when chatting with one of my friend

we chat about my grandma

when he asked

"how was your grandma ?"

I answered

"she become more weak than before"

He say

"Don't worry ..she will be ok"

then I say

"Actually I hope that she can 'go' faster

at least she no need to suffer

kidney failure

are very suffering "

I think not only me feel that

others too...

if you saw her

just sleeping there

cant move

when you massage her

she will scream

because of the pain

I am sure that your tears

will started to drop

if you saw that

but

we cant cry in front of her

we don't want to let her saw

that

because of her we

feel sad

feel pain

feel useless

we cant help her !!!

GOD

please help her

she is a just a woman

&

she is 77 years old

please don't suffer her anymore

let her go

in peace